Reject the fraudulent version of yourself. Do it now before it’s too late.
Compromise and sacrifice are inevitably required to further on as an adult human in order to maintain a sustainable living ecosystem from paying bills to putting food in the refrigerator. But other than basic necessities in order to survive nothing else is worth a single compromise. Living free from burden and regret is all any one person needs. There will always be burdens, and always be regrets--but if you can limit the addition to such follies and allow yourself to be authentic, genuine, and free these such unpleasant moments of times will be just that--passing moments in time.
I listened to Joni Mitchell’s The Circle Game last night on my way home from work--and without getting into detail it felt as though I was remembering a past life, something generations ago. When in reality this song is representative of my life not even ten years ago, and in a lot of ways a song that reminded me of who I really am, and could be again. I’m not an unhappy man. But I am a compromised man--I am not living my authentic truths as a curious nomadic soul, an artist and a lover.
It is too easy to blame the modern day rat race for the sacrifices we would never dream of making as children--but that is bullshit. Just another misguided adult concept furthering our chemical dependency of sacrificing our soul that is silently screaming at us to live honestly everyday of our lives. Everyone’s truth is different. Some have a fire burning war of truths ready to explode underneath their day to day mature functional lives; other's hidden truths’ are much simpler, but of no less importance. Rather just different. Such as a desire to tell their partner off about how they order Chinese food. Never ordering General Tso’s over Chicken and Broccoli--and silently allowing it to happen could be infuriating. That is not my truth--but if that does exist out there, speak up! It is equally important to anyone else’s compromised life.
It does not matter. Truth is truth. That sinking feeling in your gut from swallowing how you really feel or how you really want to live whether it be quitting your job and travelling the world busking for change or putting your foot down and letting your lady know she sucks at ordering Chinese food--either way it is of utmost importance we all stop it. Stop it right now before it’s too late. Because the alternative is forgetting who you really are, and who you are capable of becoming. Reject the fraudulent version of yourself. Do it with passion, anger, rage, and hate for this inauthentic imposter that you have become. It’s the enemy within--let the ally from the past and future come home again.
And the seasons, they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We're captive on the carousel of time
We can't return, we can only look
Behind, from where we came
And go round and round and round, in the circle game
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